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Song of the day: Little Secrets by Passion Pit
Mood: Annoyed

Come on this musical ride, with me.

Over the past 8 months I've been to 8 states, and seen over 20 shows. And it's only August.

I've recently, though being obsessed with music my whole life,  have put my "good groupie-ness" into motion.  Letting myself go and selling my soul to the road, sounds pretty ideal right now.

Why not? I mean, I'm not married, I'm not old.. I make good money.
My job has allowed me to basically take off at any given time and still manage to work 37-40 hour work weeks.

I try to justify it, but then I realize I really care about what anyone thinks.
Though to many others it seems that all I do is chase a "false sense of reality"

I hardly could define it by that.

Music literally is one of the only things I don't question in my life.
It makes sense and has always made sense. It's something that has an immediate affect on me when I hear the chords and melodies.

I guess some just don't get it, and that's fine. I'm not snorting lines, or sleeping with the bands. I'm not that  My bills are paid and make time for my friends and family.
I'm just living life and loving it.

I'm really loving my life right now, but then I get back from an incredible weekend and I feel like I've been dumped because the 'musical ride' is over.

It's a bittersweet symphony this life.... 
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now....

<3
Chasin you the rest of my life.

God, I love a good tune.

I saw it with my two green eyes.
--
True love is always complicated, free and easy is overated.

Are you hiding or are you seeking?

Sometimes.

Sometimes I think about what it would be like if I didn't live in Oklahoma. It's not very often I do this, because I really love it here, but lately I've been thinking about different life options.


Would I be happier if I went to college in another state and lived off of ramen and poptarts?
Would I be happier if I stayed at home and finished Rose State and then to UCO to become a teacher?
Would I be happier if I were single?

What if I decided to to call up my grandma in California and tell her to clear a room, because I'm moving in.
I've been thinking about different things lately. Sometimes I feel lost.  Like what I'm doing isn't living life to it's full potential. That's what I've always been about.

Sometimes I feel lost.

Sometimes I write an entire blog and want to delete it.

Austin, Texas changed my life.


Legit.

I'm hunkering down, and I"m just going to do it.

Anyone that even knows me knows that I CONSTANTLY am taking pictures, of everything.

I'm going to be a photog.

Yep. I'm going to do it.


And I'm pretty stoked about it.


Also, I need to start conjuring up ideas for my bucket list.

I've never seen the movie, all I usually do is associate it with John Mayer, but I really want to write it down and legit learn/do stuff on it!

I'm inspired.

I love where my mind is at this point in my life, and lately that just seems out of the ordinary for me.

I know what to say

But don't know where to begin...

I'm random. Couldn't you tell. I love pepper. I will only drink Dr. Pepper if it's paired with pizza. Music takes me places where reality just can't seem to take me, Frank Sinatra's voice is like heaven to my ears, I listen to songs over and over until they get old, I can't deny a good syncopated rhythm, or any rhythm for that matter. I could lay for hours on a blanket in 75 degree weather sipping unsweetened iced tea with lemon under the sun, I've been in a relationship with my boyfriend for six years, yes, we've been together since high school. I play the clarinet. Hanson will always have a piece of my heart and be a part of my existence, I don't care what people say :) I have the grandest friends anyone could ask for, as cliche as that sounds, I'm not kidding.  I don't think it's possible for them to be any better. I've seen my favorite band over 20 something times, Sammy and I have tried to count we can't agree on a number. I hate corn. I have a horrible habit of nail biting. Gilmore Girls is one of my obsessions. I have over 14 tubes of mascara in my make-up bag. I'm a music snob. I actually like going to work, I have a tattoo, few have seen it, I don't talk about it much for funny reasons. Trust me you would laugh, but it totally is fitting for the way I am. I don't really like dessert, aside from cheesecake and I'm all over that. Coffee is great, though it upsets my stomach. I have heartburn all the time. It's pathetic. I sleep with a minimum of 3 blankets, even in the summer. My mom is my life, I'm currently living at home but when I was away at college I HAD to talk to her everyday. She is the reason I love music. I don't like Nirvana. I know what you're thinking, I just can't deny it. I've never been on a plane. I want to be a radio personality so badly but can't seem to submit my application into radio school. My friends and I have driven to The border of Oklahoma and back just for the sheer fact that we could. I would drive the hour and half it takes to go to Tulsa just for QT.  I do laundry when it's to the point where I have NOTHING to wear.

Sammy did it. So I thought I would too!

Oh hey. Come here often?

Nothing can be worse than numb.

Earlier this evening I spoke to my father for the first time in 17 years.
My parents divorced when I was four.
My sister was two.
I'm a product of divorce, but as Sammy and I spoke earlier on the subject, I didn't go through a divorce.

I don't remember my dad. I didn't even recognize his voice.

The embarrassing part about it is that I was calling my grandma for financial help so I could enroll this semester, and she nonchalantly goes, "Sure honey, I can help...your education means so much to me...oh hey your dad is here would you like to talk to him?"

UUUMMM sure???

The conversation was light, and somewhat familiar. I don't really know how to feel about it.
I think the best word is numb.

In a weird way I'm glad it happened It's like I called at that exact time for a reason.
...He told me that he didn't know how to contact my sister and I. He simply said, "I didn't know how to break the ice...and I guess just going in head first was the only way to go."

I agree, dad. In all aspects of life you just have to dive in head first.

I mostly copy other people.

Imitation is the highest form of flattery right?
Well that's exactly how I feel about it.

Sure, I like to browse and explore the minds of others then I piece together my own "art"
Don't get me wrong, I don't just go around and STEAL other people's ideas. I definitely always give credit where credit is due. But come on, if you're going to be a walking canvas, don't get hell bent when someone comes along and 1. Compliments you, or 2. Decides to want to buy the same thing.

I guess that simple quote about imitation seems to piss off so many "non-conformists" that I felt compelled to touch on the subject.

HELLO.

You PROBABLY didn't do it first.
You were not the first to order a double soy latte with half cream and 3 1/3 extra shot of caramel.
Okay. Get over yourself. Those boots you wear with your dresses with tights (One of my most worn outfits this winter) Look around EVERYONE IS WEARING THAT SAME OUTFIT.

I don't want to come off as a complete follower of trends, because that ain't me. Just sayin, that I like to wear what I like, and if it happens to be what you have on, well then by Golly I'm going to wear it. Sorry if that upsets you.

Let's not confuse my "imitation problem" with acceptance...oh ooh oh no. I don't like something just because you do.
I WON'T LISTEN TO YOUR NICKELBACK SO I CAN FIT IN WITH YOU. NO!

Don't really know where I'm going with the post? Yeah me either.
It may be because I'm not very happy with my layout art yet and I will be surfing the internets to get inspiration for a new header. LOL.

I'm random. I'm two sided. So if it just seemed that I contradicted myself, I probably did. ha. But hey this is my blog. dangit. I can be random and confusing if I wanna be!

I went off on a tangent, and I think I missed my own point.
Sometimes I like being ditzy, and today is definitely one of those days.

(PS, my title was taken from The Almost....hahahaha")
♥ Katie

Goodbye with the old, and in with the new.

Twenty Ten? Two Thousand Ten?
2010.
Okay.

I've decided this year, while I'll be turning 23 *Nobody likes you when you're TWENTY THREE!* I'm not going to please people. I don't want that to come off the wrong way, but I just don't want to be unhappy just so someone else gets a warm feeling inside.

I'm done with negativity.
Save the drama fo yo llama as my sister would say.
I like that philosophy of my 11 year old sister.

Looking back ten years ago, I was almost thirteen... You couldn't peel me away from my c.d. player and music magazines. I wouldn't be caught dead in anything else but my converse and t-shirts. I was the shy quiet one that would give you all my answers just because I was too nice to say no.

...I still love my music, my t-shirts and sometimes I'm still quite awkward.

But I really feel like in my life, at this very moment, that I'm soul searching. I'm trying to find my niche.

I AM going to be more independent. I AM going to be more responsible, healthier, a better decision maker.

I'm the only one that can change my life.

Bring it 2010.

♥ Katie